Written on
September 26, 2013
It is fly
day, and I am on my way back to Atlanta from my weekly round of consulting
superstardom. Instead of using my time at cruising altitude figuring out how to
solve my client’s latest problems or working on my business school essay, I decided
to write about my dreams. Theoretically, I should be full speed ahead on my
business school applications. Instead, I pressed the emergency STOP button and
ceased all activity.
I am no longer
following critical path [see below].
Critical Path
So why now
with the emergency STOP button? It’s about the balance that I want and don’t
have. Ish is out of whack these days. I am living in 2 cities during any given
week, editing high school scholarship app essays daily, attempting to plan a
spring fundraiser, writing random thoughts on post it notes so I don’t lost my
IP, and hesitating to launch Atkins Coordination. Instead of doing the things I
am supposed to do (See Critical Path), I am doing the things I love to do.
It all
started right after I attended a GSB information session. In the session, the
woman was asking the standard Stanford MBA app questions.
·
Who
are you and why?
·
What
do you want to do really?
I had an
Aha moment about my secret goals. I have these things that I want to do, that I
won’t give a chance because they diverge from my “critical path”.
Thoughts on who I am
A techie
geek who believes in embracing my emotional self and the power of love.
My wealth
is my network. A healthy, authentic relationship with self and others is more
valuable than any currency.
Everything
that I do takes me back to helping others.
I am much
better suited in bright colors with natural hair.
Is it immoral
to be a physicist turned business woman turned entrepreneur and aspirational
writer?
Thoughts on what I
want to do
Public
Relations/Event planning/ Small Business Branding/ Network Skill Building – I truly
get a kick out of planning and logistics. From a logical perspective, I
sometimes doubt I can build a business with a people based mission. I mean it is not a tech startup, I am not
streamlining processes, or realizing values creating a bottom line impact. I
want to bring real people together for like-minded interactions and interests.
The whole concept is very anti-2013.
Then there
is this education thing. When reading news, or talking about pressing issue, it
is always my hot spot. I often find myself referring back to my time in the
kindergarden classroom when I channel patience for consulting firedrills. Or my
volunteer hours at a local high school trying to convince black boys from the west side that
Lil Wayne relates to math.
Then there
is my life. Baseball games with my coworkers, dance class with my girlfriends,
spades with the homies, facetime with my siblings, recipes with grandmommy.
Why not business
school
My story
and my juice that I’ve spent months working on has very little to do with the
above. I am pretty sure if I stay in corporate America without giving my ideas
a chance or go to business school with no clear sense of direction, I’d be
miserable. Moreover, I would be putting my authenticiry at risk. So, yeah, I still want to go to business
school, but I really want to figure out why. Maybe I need to live my life, go
for my dreams, and figure out how I can contribute to this world to make a
difference.
I am
thinking that before I move forward with the graduate school process, I need to
give my secret [and very real] dreams a chance. Maybe if I applied all of my energy
towards the things I love, I could make something happen. When I figure out, I’ll be in touch.
Sincerely,
1/216
strands
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